Merry Christmas to All!!!

I just wanted to wish you all a very Merry Christmas. Be safe on your travels, and have a wonderful time with your loved ones. :)

Food?!? What's That?!?

Well as it is slowly turning into Christmas Eve/Day, I am going now for what seems like a long time on mac/cheese, instant potatoes, and instant pancakes...oh let's not forget a few rolls of TP and no kleenex to boot so my body of course decides to get sick now and I have to use the little bit of TP that's left as tissue to blow my freakin nose. :( I have never been so poor in my life than I am at this moment. I am not trying to get pity, I am venting.

I just am having hard time getting in Christmas mood when I feel like crap and would rather crawl into a hole instead of show myself in this state. I didn't go overboard on Christmas gifts for anyone this year and while in my present state of finances is a good thing, I feel bad because I usually DO go all out for everyone. I didn't even send out any cards this year, which is unlike me. Maybe I am being a Scrooge, or a Grinch...I just know that I am very unhappy this year compared to all other Christmas's past.

I'm optimistic though, so I am hoping for a better New Year!

My lack of patience, the phone charger, and Suzie's advice...

Have you ever had one of those days where you just knew your gut instinct was dead on? That you were so right about the situation and you knew it all and nothing or noone could tell you different. Ever have one where you thought that and you were dead OFF? Well that was me this past week with Jeff. Yes, we have officially had our first fight over something soooo stupid and small, and I even went to the lenght of telling him that it was over between us. WOW!!! Christy, what a fool you made of yourself! Let me tell you all that happened:

It was this past Wednesday, the day before Gobble Day (as I have officially dubbed it). Jeff came down on Tues. as planned and talked about how his mom wanted to see him during the holiday, which I can completely understand. So Weds. afternoon around 2:30 Jeff said he was going to goto KY. to see his family which was about 45-60 minutes away from my place here in Ohio. 'I'll be back around 6-6:30 and we will go out to dinner then...blah blah blah'. Again, I have absolutely no quams with this at all, I was all for it. So 6 comes and theres no word from Jeff, 6:30...still no word. I didn't hear from him until 12:40AM that night. Needless to say Christy was a wee bit worried and ticked-off as well. When he contacted me, he merely text me, no phone call. He said he would call me when he got to his grandmothers place where everyone was meeting up at. (I must back-track...he said his grandma was in hospital and had a stroke. He was not thinking straight and that was his reason for not calling me.) So he text "I will call when I get there", no call was ever made nor received. Again, Christy was none too happy.

So the next day, after I was up the whole night wondering what was going on with Jeff and I, I decided to text him and ask what his plans were for the day...no response. I called, no answer. So my mind is of course going EVERYWHERE WRONG & EVIL at this point. Who is he really with, what's really going on? Blah blah blah!?!? So I text him and said forget it, we are done. Still no responce even from that, which I was shocked alittle at.

I ended up spendind Gobble Day alone, which is what I really wanted. I was in no shape to face family, I was to angry and sad. I didn't want to be a downer on their day.

So in the middle of the night again around 11 or 12 that same evening, Jeff text me and we were able to communicate some. I do not like to do these sort of things over text, its silly to me to do that. He wouldn't call me still, but he was texting me continually for about 45 mins to an hour or so. I felt some better, he and I made up as best a couple can through texting.

He called the next morning and his voice was so good to hear and we talked more and now things are back to normal. I will get to see my sweetie tomorrow (Tues 12-1-09) for the first time since all this happened and I can't wait to just get a huge bear hug from him.

Now...the phone charger, lol...well, you see he kinda left that here and I threw it away. No biggie right? Yeah that's what I thought, I figured he won't be coming back here so he won't need this anymore, it's trash, its gone. So I'm talking to Suzie a little after I pitched the charger and she asked me "Did you cut it up?", "NO! But what a great idea!" So yea, I am buying him a NEW WHOLE charger now as I type (Tami is getting it for me with my $). LOL!!!

So that is what happened to me over my Holiday. It was horrible. If I had MORE PATIENCE IN ME, none of this would have happened. I really need to learn how to practice patience. Anyone have any advice on that they could tell me? As you read, I need it. I could have lost something great, possibly the best thing in my life (man wise).

In One Word...

1. Where is your mobile phone? desk
2. Your hair? black
3. Your mother? sweet
4. Your father? gone
5. Your favorite food? steak
6. Your dream last night? talkative
7. Your favorite drink? milk
8. Your dream/goal? cards
9. What room are you in? dining
10. Your hobby? scrapbooking
11. Your fear? alone
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Jeff
13. Where were you last night? bed
14. Something that you aren't? doctor
15. Muffins? pan
16. Wish list item? cuttlebug
17. Where did you grow up? Cincinnati
18. Last thing you did? dinner
19. What are you wearing? P.J.'s
20. Your TV? Shrek
21. Your Pets? cats
22. Friends? roommate
23. Your life? romance
24. Your mood? manic
25. Missing Someone? Jeff
26. Vehicle? Toyota
27. Something you’re not wearing? braces
28. Your favorite store? Joanns
29. Your favorite colour? pink
30. When was the last time you laughed? today
31. Last time you cried? yesterday
32. Your best friend? Tami
33. One place that I go to over and over? scraptable
34. Facebook? yes
35. Favorite place to eat? O'Charleys

Challenges from SFTIO

The one group that I have belonged to the longest and have participated in the most is Scrapbooking From The Inside Out (SFTIO). There are two links to this kit club on my blog main page.

What I love about this group so much and why I have stayed an active member for close to a year now (3/09 is when I joined), is the women involved and their caring and ever readiness to help, listen, console, share, etc. in EVERYTHING that is going on in someones life. No matter how small or big, these ladies are here for me and I love them dearly. I have never met any of them personally but we are all so active on the message boards that I feel I know them well and they know me.

My involvement in this group is my favorite thing to do by far on the internet and off the net (to scrapbook the challenges of the group of course! lol).

Each month we cover a different emotion/topic and this month we are working on "Generosity". Below is the first challenge that I have completed. The link should take you directly to the challenge.
http://www.scrapbookingfromtheinsideout.com/board/index.php?showtopic=1662

This is the title of the LO:
Here is the LO:

The ScrapRoom Weekly Blog Challenge {Week #45}

THIS WEEK'S CHALLENGE: Create a layout with at least one photo and some interesting facts or tidbits about YOU!

TITLE OF LO:

ANGLED VEIW #1

ANGLED VIEW #2

FULL 2 PAGE LAYOUT VIEW

New Personal Challenge "Book A Month"

I was sitting here talking to Tami (roommate - you'll see this name a lot), and discussing how I have so many books ~ (3 full bookcases and then some) ~ and how little I have actually read. I mean I bet you out of all of those books I have only read or started to read only a very small handful of them. Don't get me wrong, I do love the books I have, or at least WANT to love them and know them inside and out but just have a hard time reading.

I have ADD and I think that had a big thing to do with why I read very little. I found it hard to get into books or finish them. So here is what I have decided to do. Every month starting this month, I am going to read one book. I know that to some one book take only a few days, but with me I am just a very slow reader and take me awhile. If I can get more in and have time, I will. I think I am going to like this. It is not a challenge that is so far over the top that I can't accomplish it, it is attainable.

Here is the first book I have chosen to read:

Book Title: 1603: A Turning Point in British History

Author: Christopher Lee

Pages: 368
Book Description:
1603 was the year that Queen Elizabeth I, the last of the Tudors, died. Her cousin, Robert Carey, immediately rode like a demon to Scotland to take the news to James VI. The cataclysmic time of the Stuarts had come and the son of Mary Queen of Scots left Edinburgh for London to claim his throne as James I of England.

Diaries and notes written in 1603 describe how a resurgence of the plague killed nearly 40,000 people. Priests blamed the sins of the people for the pestilence, witches were strangled and burned and plotters strung up on gate tops. But not all was gloom and violence. From a ship's log we learn of the first precious cargoes of pepper arriving from the East Indies after the establishment of a new spice route; Shakespeare was finishing Othello and Ben Jonson wrote furiously to please a nation thirsting for entertainment.

1603 was one of the most important and interesting years in British history. Christopher Lee, acclaimed author of This Sceptred Isle, unfolds its story from first-hand accounts and original documents to mirror the seminal year in which Britain moved from Tudor medieval ism towards the wars, republicanism and regicide that lay ahead.

I really hope that I succeed with this and EVERY monthly goal. I think I will become a more rounded individual. I have a lot of classics here as well that I want to sink my teeth into. As well as a lot of non-fiction covering topics A to Z.

I think I can do this

Well today marks the first day that I have NOT had a cigarette. Not really even any cravings and I am thrilled to death about that! I just woke up today and felt really great, I didn't think about it first thing in the morning, nor when I finished eating. I am just tickled, teehee!

I am just wondering if I had to let the larger dosage of the Chantix get into my system. Either way, I'm doing it.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life smoke free!

Insomnia Bites

I have suffered from insomnia for a long time now it seems. I don't know the last time I was able to go a whole week or even 3 days in a row sleeping at night. I know that this just messes me up all around, I am yawning now as a matter of fact but sleep I will not. I've been up all night again.

Part of my trouble is that I have such God awful nightmares and I honestly hate to sleep. I use to love to sleep and just couldn't wait til night to come. Now I dread it. Don't get me wrong, I mean I do things in the night while everyone is sleeping...I make cards or scrapbook mainly. Get caught up on paper work or clean. I do kind of like the alone time and the solitude of the night. I remember I would get angry when I was not left alone in the night to have "Christy's time". Now I don't really care, because I have a bigger place now that I am kind of alone anyway.

I created this LO with a cute lil' Garfield sleeping on a pillow b/c it represents what I want, peace and comfort. I would love to relax like that at night and just aaaaaah, sleep.

Much Harder Than I Thought, Need Some Help

This is so much harder than last time. So far I am becoming the most irritable person I know. I am just one big fit of BLAH waiting to go off at aNytHiNG!!! I WANT A CIGARETTE SO BAD!!!!

The last time that Iquit and was on the Chantix pill I did great, I went over 3 months with not a one puff! Not even really wanting one or real cravings. Now I don't know what't going on!?! Im frustrated at that. I mean this pill is supposed to help right? It did before, why not now? ARGGHhh!

I am trying to drink a lot of water as well. I know that if I get the nic-0-crap out of my system, that will help. Doesn't help when I am puffing here and there though.

I just wish I knew of something to help me when I get the cravings and then get so angry when I tell myself "no". I mean I can try meditation or something, but I know for a fact that that won't help this, at least not at the beginning when the cravings are so bad and I get so moody with it.

Any ideas?

Things I Won't Miss About Smoking (QUITTING TODAY!!!)

Since I am quitting smoking today, I thought a list of things I won't miss would be appropriate and fitting.

1. I won't miss spending all that money on cigarettes anymore.
2. I won't miss being out of breath when I climb up to my third floor apartment
3. I won't miss people looking at me funny with dirty looks
4. I wont miss the smelling of smoke or the look that is has on my walls (even though I have only smoked indoors for about 4 months vs. the whole time I have lived here, I am sure there is some yellowing of the walls).
5. I won't miss having the jitters when I "feel" the urge to light up, anxiety will be handled another way.
6. I won't miss "Smokey Breath" that I actually call myself sometimes because of smoking
7. I won't miss any health related problems that I am avoiding now by quitting.
8. I won't miss smoke in my eyes when I have my glasses on (for some reason it always gets caught between lens and eye)
9. I won't miss always wondering when or where I will be able to have my next cigarette
10. The most important thing I won't miss...is the gained time I will have to spend doing things that I enjoy and spending it with people I enjoy

Limitless Imagination

What I am hoping to accomplish here with this blog is to get more out of myself; to stretch myself to the limit and beyond when it comes to scrapping and my inner/personal self. I want to know myself better and to have this prove as record of what goes on and what happens in this "journey of self discovery".

Let's Begin

Today is the first day of writing in this new blog. I am still trying to make it my own and get comfortable with it. I chose the name of the blog My SLICE of Life because of my love of scrapbooking and cardmaking with use of the Slice Machine, lol. I wanted to incorporate something I use and love with the craft into the name of the blog. Hope it's not to corny.

I started to take Shimelle's Blogging for Scrapbooker's and so far I am already behind, what a surprise. I will get caught up by this evening though. I hope! :)