Trying Again...

Well, I have started the Chantix again in my 2nd attempt to quit smoking this year. I really feel that I will make it this time and this is because #1 roommate Tami is going to stop with me, & #2 Nick doesn't live here anymore. So that takes two smokers out of my home that were such a temptation for me last time. I have a really good attitude this time also, not that I didn't last time, but I just feel differently now.

So wish me luck!

Much Harder Than I Thought, Need Some Help

This is so much harder than last time. So far I am becoming the most irritable person I know. I am just one big fit of BLAH waiting to go off at aNytHiNG!!! I WANT A CIGARETTE SO BAD!!!!

The last time that Iquit and was on the Chantix pill I did great, I went over 3 months with not a one puff! Not even really wanting one or real cravings. Now I don't know what't going on!?! Im frustrated at that. I mean this pill is supposed to help right? It did before, why not now? ARGGHhh!

I am trying to drink a lot of water as well. I know that if I get the nic-0-crap out of my system, that will help. Doesn't help when I am puffing here and there though.

I just wish I knew of something to help me when I get the cravings and then get so angry when I tell myself "no". I mean I can try meditation or something, but I know for a fact that that won't help this, at least not at the beginning when the cravings are so bad and I get so moody with it.

Any ideas?

Things I Won't Miss About Smoking (QUITTING TODAY!!!)

Since I am quitting smoking today, I thought a list of things I won't miss would be appropriate and fitting.

1. I won't miss spending all that money on cigarettes anymore.
2. I won't miss being out of breath when I climb up to my third floor apartment
3. I won't miss people looking at me funny with dirty looks
4. I wont miss the smelling of smoke or the look that is has on my walls (even though I have only smoked indoors for about 4 months vs. the whole time I have lived here, I am sure there is some yellowing of the walls).
5. I won't miss having the jitters when I "feel" the urge to light up, anxiety will be handled another way.
6. I won't miss "Smokey Breath" that I actually call myself sometimes because of smoking
7. I won't miss any health related problems that I am avoiding now by quitting.
8. I won't miss smoke in my eyes when I have my glasses on (for some reason it always gets caught between lens and eye)
9. I won't miss always wondering when or where I will be able to have my next cigarette
10. The most important thing I won't miss...is the gained time I will have to spend doing things that I enjoy and spending it with people I enjoy